Hello, my Mr. Shangguan

Chapter 235 Can't let go (2)

Chu Yingrou, this woman, if she could, she would rather never see her in her life.

The sea where the corner of the reef was exposed could no longer be calm, and the rolling waves submerged in the sea rolled over, and in a blink of an eye it became a stormy sea.

"Let me meet with her, do you want me to reconcile with her? Or wait for them to inform me of their closer relationship?"

He smiled mockingly, and his voice was a bit bleak, and the melancholy tone was mixed with the depression accumulated in the past.

It's not that she hasn't heard the voices outside, and it's not that she doesn't know the relationship between Chu Ying and Mu Zhennan.When Mu Zhennan took Chu Yingrou to various public occasions, this situation was hinted clearly.

Sima Shao's heart is well known to all passers-by, and what he said must be like this!

how?Could it be that after so many years, did she suddenly want to ask Chu Yingrou to rectify her name?Or did Chu Yingrou endure it for too long, and she didn't want to bear it any longer?

It's a pity that no matter what the situation is, it is not what she wants to see.

"Lao Mu is different from me. He likes her, heh, he should like her very much."

Although she didn't want to admit it, Mu Zhennan cared about Chu Yingrou a thousand times more than Qin Wan.

This is the saddest and most ironic point for her.

For an adult, emotional choices are naturally understandable.However, as a father, Mu Zixiao is only disappointed with Mu Zhennan, and also has a bit of pity for his mother.

Mu Zixiao stared forward, in the sunlight, every speck of dust floating in the air could be seen, and after an unknown amount of time, she slowly said, "I will never forget that day, I will never forget The scene that arrived."

The box containing memories suddenly cracked a gap, and then all the memories that were imprisoned in that box came out, the depressed, sad, heart-piercing...all ran out.

"That day, I tried my best to rush to the hospital, but in the end I was still one step too late. What I saw was that my mother jumped down resolutely from the roof of the hospital. She was wearing a white dress, which was very light and elegant. The moment she got to the ground, blood splashed all over her body."

At that time, accompanied by screams, a group of people quickly surrounded the downstairs of the hospital, including doctors, patients, and many people she didn't know, all surrounded there.

One after another, strange faces flashed in front of my eyes, watching and discussing...

She rushed forward and pushed those insignificant people away, and the first thing she saw was the blood that was constantly flowing.

Even in the air, there is a faint smell of blood, and then it continues to spread...

At that time, she discovered for the first time, what a hopeless color red is.

Taking heavy steps, and getting closer, what she saw was the bloody figure...

Countless blood flowed out of Qin Wan's body. At the last moment of her life, she became extremely cherished in an instant. Qin Wan exhausted her last ounce of strength to see her, opened her mouth with difficulty, and the blood flowed out of her mouth uncontrollably. Overflowing, she heard Qin Wan calling her name, "Xiaoxiao..."

Qin Wan bent her lips and tried to touch her cheek with trembling hands, but just as she stopped in mid-air, it fell straight down.

She closed her eyes, and Qin Wan completely closed them.

She held her mother's hand tightly, and the only thing she could feel was the gradually cooling temperature.

"Before she closed her eyes for the last time, she took one last look at me. She called my name for the last time. After that, she closed her eyes and never opened them again." No matter how she called Qin Wan, she always I didn't open my eyes again, only my body slowly became cold, and then gradually became stiff.

Closing her eyes, the scene of that day was like a revolving lantern, flashing past her eyes over and over again.

Every scene is shocking.

The voice was slightly choked, "I still remember that it rained that day, but no amount of rain could wash away the blood that fell on the ground. It was so bright red, so dazzling, it was blood. From the body I can't stop, I'm right next to her. However, her hands are cold and slowly become stiff and motionless. She can no longer hold my hand again. There is no way to give me a gentle smile. Even, her hair is messy, mixed with blood and hideous, it is simply terrible, she... She is obviously a person who cares about her image so much, but in the end she fell into this Such a situation. I called her, but she didn't talk to me anymore."

Those illusory pictures, the memory hidden in the deepest part rushed out, causing her a splitting headache...

Every time I think about it, it hurts to even breathe.

Birth and death were originally major events in life.

But death, because of reluctance and nostalgia, is even more difficult to let go.

Her spirit was like a silk, her eyes were a little dull, "This scene happened right in front of my eyes."

At first, she always thought that Chu Yingrou only appeared beside Mu Zhennan after her mother passed away, but it was not.

She only found out later that Chu Ying and Mu Zhennan had always been in contact, and Qin Wan knew about this matter.

"Afterwards, they told me that my mother suffered from severe depression and was confined to the hospital as a last resort. And Chu Yingrou was the person who visited her the most. But that day, it was Chu Yingrou who told them that they could stop Drop the medicine my mother was taking."

However, those medicines cannot be stopped.

He raised his hand to touch the tears in the corner of his eyes.

"I was abroad during that time. Lao Mu kept my mother's situation away. He didn't want to let me know. I know he was not happy with my mother. But what I can't bear is how can he be with that woman Together, aim at my mother. Even if he and my mother don't have a deep relationship, it won't cut off this last way of life."

This is the most difficult point for her to let go, and also the most unforgivable point.

Two people who don't want to love, even if they can't stay together until the end, will they even cut off their last chance of survival?

In her impression, Mu Zhennan was never a cruel person.However, for Qin Wan, Mu Zhennan became more cruel every time.

"So, I can't talk to her calmly, I don't want to see her, I don't want to hear her voice, I don't want to know everything about her."

Chu Yingrou is a person who can't be hated when people see it, but it is such a seemingly perfect woman who indirectly ruined Qin Wan's life.

She knew that the union of the previous generation was not entirely due to feelings. Although she couldn't empathize, she would try to understand.

Those missed loves would certainly make people feel pity, but no matter how many regrettable and pathetic reasons there are between Mu Zhennan and Chu Yingrou, it cannot be an excuse to hurt her mother.

Therefore, she has no way to forgive, no way to fulfill.

Choosing to forgive and fulfill, for her, means betrayal of her mother.

"Because of her, everything has become bad. Therefore, even if the relationship between her and Mu Zhennan was ups and downs, they were not the only ones who made sacrifices. Even if their past was pitiful, I can't forgive them."

"If you really don't want to see her, then you don't have to." Shangguan Jingyu reached out and touched her temples lightly, and pressed her into his arms. Even if she didn't say anything, he could still feel her trembling emotions . "Don't force yourself to do what you don't want to do."

What Mu Zixiao said was right, in this world, there is no kind of sadness that one can empathize with.Most people understand feelings, but he hopes that when she is sad, he can be the one who is by her side.

After a while, after the person in his arms calmed down, he said, "I have asked Lin Mo to find out the situation, and he will get the news as soon as possible, so don't worry."

"Shangguan Jingyu, don't be too nice to me." Mu Zixiao threw herself into his arms and tightly wrapped around his strong waist, the reassuring freshness of his body permeated bit by bit, and he felt Her warmth made her choke, "If you treat me too well, I will suspect that this is a dream, and I will be afraid to wake up."

"Aren't you stupid?" Smiling, she stretched out her hand and rubbed the top of her hair, "You are the person I filled in the spouse column, you are my wife, I plan to get married once in my life, if it's not good for you, it's good for someone .”

Seeing that the door was slightly closed, Little Peanut poked his head over and saw the two people embracing each other, he came over with his mouth flattened, walked over, glanced at Shangguan Jingyu, then at Mu Zixiao, the fleshy The little hands were tangled together, looked at Mu Zixiao with some distress, and said, "Mom, did you hug the wrong one!"

After finishing speaking, those little eyes still glanced at Shangguan Jingyu from time to time, the meaning he wanted to express couldn't be more obvious, how cute his appearance should be.

Seeing Xiao Huasheng's appearance, most of the haze that fell on his heart before dissipated. He stretched out his hand and hugged Xiao Huasheng in his arms, and coaxed, "Isn't it still possible to hug Peanut?"

"Hee hee." Little Peanut smiled with satisfaction, took out a few candies from the small pocket of his clothes, peeled one off himself and fed it to Mu Zixiao, "Mom, eating a sweet candy will make you feel better." good."

"Okay." Shouting the orange-flavored candy, my heart almost melted.

Shangguan Jingyu was not polite, and rubbed Xiao Huasheng's hair, "Where's mine?"

Little Peanut faced Shangguan Jingyu, put his hips on his hips, and straightened his body, "Father, you're so old, you still eat sweets, don't you be ashamed!"

Shangguan Jingyu couldn't help laughing while helping his forehead, where did he get such a double-standard son!

Little Peanut didn't stay in the room for a while, when he heard the crisp sound of the "bell" in the stairwell, he knew that Ah Fei was nearby, and ran out again with pulsating legs.

Although Little Peanut was not there, Mu Zixiao still had a smile on her face, just like the candy Peanut fed her, it was so sweet to her heart.

"Still laughing?" Seeing the smile on her face that hadn't faded away, he pinched her chin and looked at her deeply, "Is it sweet?"

"..."

"I'll try it too." After finishing speaking, he kissed her directly.

Seeing the old housekeeper answering the phone, the old man pricked up his ears, although he didn't care on the surface, "Jing Yu called? What's the matter?"

The old housekeeper hesitated for a moment. The old man was looking forward to Master Jingyu's return. If he heard such news, he wondered if he would be angry.

"Master Jingyu said that he has something to do tomorrow, so he can't go back to the old house!"

"what?"

Sure enough, the first thing I heard was the old man's furious voice.

However, after a while, before he could persuade him, the old man said first, "He's a smart kid, so let me know beforehand."

"..."

The old housekeeper was quite surprised by the old man's change. When did this stubborn old man think so hard?