Great writers and philosophers

Chapter 136

"Once, not long after I settled in Yokohama." The silver-haired woman in a light gray dress sat upright, with her hands folded on her knees when she created the first literary award-winning work named after her pseudonym. It looks like a pair of transparent, wise and quiet emerald eyes.

Polaris returned to France to receive an award and was invited to participate in a popular local talk show in Yokohama. In the show, the elegant-looking host asked her about her daily life. She mentioned that she was not good at getting along with people, and then talked about a little thing.

With an elegant bun, she looks like an intellectual woman full of distance. She said in a standard native language: "I was very impressed that day. It just rained a while ago. , the sea in Yokohama Port is iron-gray, and the area near the sea level is reminiscent of the haiku that was left on this land. After the rain, it cleared up, and I looked up from the swing set in my garden—probably because it was just transplanted relationship, so the cherry blossoms are a little thin and lonely. Looking through the gaps between the flower branches, what you see is a touch of crystal clear blue, as if the blue of the sea a few days ago has been purified to that small It’s like being in a gap, that’s the feeling.”

Polaris bent his eyes, smiled and said: "Suddenly my doorbell rang, and there were two people standing outside the door, a middle-aged man and a young man, they asked me if I was Polaris, and explained how they knew I lived in Where, who am I?"

The host opened his mouth exaggeratedly, and asked: "So readers and fans found Mr.'s residence, and then went directly to the door?"

Polaris nodded, and said with a slight smile, "That's right, it's really amazing."

Host: "Wow—then, did you let them in?"

Polaris: "Well, let them in, pour tea, get some snacks, and then sit on the sofa opposite them, smiling like the older sister of the country neighbors I lived in when I was a child."

Host: "Hahaha, it's a little troublesome. Although it's a compliment to be cared about to this extent, but sure enough, if you are not good at interpersonal communication, you will find it very troublesome, right? Then, Mr. Polaris, how did you deal with it? Woolen cloth?"

Polaris: "It's actually very common. Because although I'm not good at it, I can still do it if I want to. Of course, there are people who really can't have a normal and good relationship with others, but to be honest, I'm not that kind of person, I just I actively chose... No, from the bottom of my heart, I just resist interpersonal communication... Sometimes I also make a lot of friends, this cannot be regarded as part of personality, but just a behavior pattern caused by personality."

In the camera, the writer living in Japan seemed to think of something, shook his head slightly, and then said to the host: "The practice is everyone's practice, it is very common, there is nothing to say, I did not make the ordinary Writing material is transformed into a noble spirit without changing its essential talent, and this can be seen throughout my work, I always need something amazing enough to serve as an ornament."

"I was sitting on the couch across from them, listening to them talking, and thinking about why I had to admit that I was the North Star."

Host: "Ah... yes, it can indeed be denied, because those two people have no evidence."

Polaris nodded, "That's right, I've been regretting it all the time. I should have thought about my words when I invited them in to pour tea. For example, since the other party has approached the door, there may be enough evidence, that is, Said all I needed to do was deny myself the head of the household."

Host: "Huh?"

Polaris: "Fortunately, there are no photos of me on the first floor. My home is a two-story Japanese-style house, and the bedroom is on the second floor, so I have room to deal with this matter. I can deliberately reveal some during the initial communication. 'Flaws' caused the suspicion of these two visitors, such as misremembering the plot in my book, misremembering the protagonist's name, etc. After the other party's suspicion deepened, I could logically 'confess' that I was not Polaris, the real Polaris has just been killed upstairs by me, and I, like them, are strangers to this house."

Host: "...huh?"

Polaris spoke with enthusiasm, rubbing his knuckles with his hands on his knees, the meaning of "interview" in his voice was much weaker, and there was an atmosphere of "chitchat" instead.

"Of course, I don't want to cause trouble for the police, so I can't let them react and call the police, but find a way to divert their attention. So I will ask them if they know why I killed Polaris, delaying Time. Most people should not want to provoke a suspected murderer when they face a suspected murderer, but when they delay time with me, my goal will be achieved. Because all I want is to delay time until Uchiha-kun is back."

Host: "...oh... that... that, that, that is, but, you spend so much time lying just to delay time... Is there any difference between this and what you actually do?"

Polaris laughed, "Of course it's different, it's the most crucial and most important thing that's different - if things really play out like the script in my mind, then it's them, not me, who feel uncomfortable about this meeting and conversation , this is the most worthwhile thing, for which I am willing to kill Polaris."

Host: "...Uh, so that's the case."

Polaris smiled unsatisfactorily in his eyes. He was silent for a moment, and then said cheerfully: "To put it bluntly, that's what happened. There must be many people who have had similar feelings. I wanted to write a mystery novel that night. The core trick in the book is the daytime experience, a story from the perspective of the visitor. The trick of the narrative is in the continuous unfolding of the clues, and finally the truth is revealed, the deceased does not exist, and the interviewee is just lying... Naturally, The reason the interviewee lies cannot be as deeply human as my reason, but a more dramatic and impactful truth. Double truth, the mystery at the end—quite interesting, right?"

The topic finally came back to the right track, the host secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and quickly praised the opposite writer from different angles, and then asked hesitantly: "... But, since it is a mystery novel, it still needs to be kept secret, right? Just like this on the show Is it okay to say it?"

If Mr. Polaris reacts and asks them to cut this paragraph...they definitely don't want to cut it!

It's all ratings!

Unexpectedly, Polaris said: "It doesn't matter, because I don't plan to write the outline before I finish it. If there will be relevant content in my book in the future, then it can only be written in books or in the form of "Unfinished Mystery Fiction". In the form of rumors, it appears as an insignificant piece of material."

"Ah? Why? I mean, isn't it very interesting? Just listening to it is very interesting, everyone will like it... Is it because it is a new subject, so you are a little hesitant? Sir, you have never created mystery novels before, right? "

"Really not, but that's not the reason." Polaris looked at the camera and smiled, "I wrote the beginning, um... about five or six pages, and then Uchiha-kun read it and asked me if I I really want to write a mystery novel."

"Ok?"

Polaris: "Then I found that I didn't want to write, it was just a kind of anxiety. It's a kind of emotional garbage that can't be thought about, and it's boring to think about it. And because I can't do anything else except write articles, so It is a kind of insincerity to write the emotion that has nothing to do with the suspenseful reasoning into the story, and the result is that Uchiha-kun can see it immediately."

The host didn't understand half of what he heard, so he could only utter a tone that seemed to be true or false.

Polaris thought for a while, then took a step forward and said: "Many people, especially literature lovers, including me in the past, don't know the difference between the enthusiasm for creation and the desire to write. Sometimes 'I want to write' and The gap between 'I should write' is wide enough to cross two worlds, and sometimes the gap between 'I have to write' and 'I will write' is so wide that even the gods of time get lost. These words Can't even speak clearly in Japanese or French, I don't know if Latin works, but I don't know Latin - but that's just my opinion, please don't mind."

Polaris lowered her eyes slightly, and the smile on her delicate face faded away. This person seemed to be thinking, and the slightly pursed lips revealed something that had nothing to do with the world that people perceive.

"There used to be a historian on the other side of the sea. Maybe you know him, Sima Qian. He once explained this in a reply letter to his friend Ren An-King Gai Wen played "Book of Changes"; Zhong Ni Er Er wrote "Spring and Autumn"; Qu Yuan was exiled, but wrote "Li Sao"; Zuo Qiu was blind, and he had "Mandarin Language"; Qin, "Said Difficulty", "Sorrow and Indignation"; "Poems" three hundred chapters, most of which are written by sages and sages. These people all intend to be depressed and unable to understand the way, so they recount the past and think about the future."

Judging by the age when she stepped into the literary world and the honors she has achieved so far, she can be called a genius, at least definitely a young woman favored by Michizane Sugawara with a longing that constitutes her soul—in other words, dissatisfaction— — to describe your own harshness.

Her use of words is so humbling that the audience inevitably feels a falsehood, but it is a falsehood they think they are.

Sometimes people always regard other people's sincerity as falsehood, and falsehood as sincerity, so everyone always misunderstands each other, hates secretly, reconciles silently, goes back and forth and gets along with each other, and finally when I welcome you Enter the door, see me in your eyes, and make up your mind to kill yourself.

I would rather kill myself than let me exist in the world as you see me.

You don't necessarily see me badly, it's just that it's not me and it offends me.

Human beings are very interesting creatures, the most interesting creatures. Nanaya Hotaru didn't realize this until he lived alone with Uchiha Itachi, and a series of new things after that.