novelraw Chapter 589 Meeting (9)
Chapter 589 Meeting (9)
Yang Peiyun lowered her eyes, mentioning the past events from those years.Qiao Mo looked at her in shock, but Yang Peiyun nervously grabbed her hand: "Xiao Mo, back then, mom really had no choice... I really couldn’t support you..."
Qiao Mo was stunned again, as if the information today was too overwhelming for her to absorb all at once.
She gazed absentmindedly at the wrinkled hand before hers, thin, with light spots already appearing.
Her fingertips rested on the back of the hand, feeling the roughness, as if life had been bitter over the years.
Yang Peiyun gave a bitter smile and said softly, "At that time, seeing how skinny you all were, and coinciding with my serious illness, I really couldn’t take care of you anymore by myself, which led me to this idea."
Qiao Mo still remained silent, realizing she wasn’t an orphan. Her mother wasn’t dead after all.
For a moment, a myriad of feelings surged in her heart, and she couldn’t tell exactly what she was feeling.
Seeing her remain silent for so long, Yang Peiyun’s eyes reddened a bit: "Xiao Mo, I know you blame me... blame me for abandoning you back then, but mom... was truly helpless."
"You don’t understand, in that kind of society at the time, I was a woman alone with two children, not even able to find work. If I didn’t make a decision, you might have actually starved to death."
Qiao Mo raised her eyes to look at her, actually wanting to say she didn’t exactly blame her.
It’s strange to say, even though she sent her to the orphanage back then, her life over the years had been quite good.
Moreover, maybe as she said, she had her own difficulties.
Qiao Mo gently withdrew her hand, placing it under the table, still somewhat unaccustomed to her holding her hand so intimately, unable to explain why.
Seeing this, Yang Peiyun’s face stiffened slightly, and then she softly said, "Xiao Mo... you still blame me, don’t you?"
Qiao Mo didn’t know how to answer for a moment, shook her head lightly under her gaze.
Yang Peiyun sighed lightly, lowering her eyes: "Back then, I even thought maybe we should all just end it together, death would be a relief."
"But you were so young and adorable, anyone could see you’d grow up to be very beautiful. It’s laughable that I was too cowardly even to die, which led me to do this... I really can’t forgive myself!"
As she spoke, Yang Peiyun raised her hand and slapped herself hard.
Qiao Mo was stunned, hurriedly saying, "Aunt Yang, don’t do that..."
Yang Peiyun’s hair was slightly disheveled, she looked up at her and laughed lightly, "You see, you still won’t call me mom."
Qiao Mo was slightly startled, opened her mouth, but still felt somewhat unaccustomed.
Previously, when she was with the Qiao family, she mostly referred to Song Yuqin as Aunt Song, oh no, she rarely actually called her anything. Even though she was her nominal mother.
Plus, she no longer had memories of her youth, the word "mother" truly felt quite strange to her. Strange to the point where it felt awkward to say.
"It’s not... I don’t mean to blame you... I just, for a moment, can’t accept it." Qiao Mo thought for a bit and decided to explain.
"Really?"
"Yes, really." Qiao Mo gave her a slight smile.
Yang Peiyun finally showed a trace of a smile on her face, and then slowly said, "Actually, even if you blame me, hate me, I would not regret my decision back then. At least, even though it wasn’t me. You’ve lived well these years, and Qiao Dehou took good care of you. So, I can be at ease with that."