novelraw Chapter 51 Tomb Sweeping
Chapter 51 Tomb Sweeping
At the beginning of January, the first snow fell in the imperial capital, and it was soft and soft like a white elf flying down.
Sheng Yu watched the bustling city gradually lose its original color little by little, and was covered in silver, and for some reason a little teary eyed.
Just last year, it was also a snowy winter, and he was accompanied by a person who would hold him in his arms in the early morning when the sky was bright. He could lean on the warm chest and put on his clothes while he was half asleep and half awake.I will tie the warm scarf in my arms on the cold and windy street, and I will sit quietly by the Yipan River to watch the snow scene.
The two held hot coffee with plain but comfortable smiles on their faces. They thought it would be the same this year, but the world is unpredictable.
Sheng Yu drank the coffee in his hand and turned around and threw it into the trash can. The snow fell sparsely on the ends of his hair and gradually melted.
Suddenly a sky-blue umbrella appeared above his head, and Sheng Yu turned his head in astonishment.
It was a young man wearing a gray turtleneck sweater and black fleece with bright and sincere eyes.
"I'll catch a cold."
The man's voice was pleasant and youthful, and Sheng Yu was taken aback for a moment before realizing that the kind stranger was actually good-looking, with calm eyebrows and eyes like a landscape painting, and a gentle and jade-like temperament.
"Thank you, but the snow is very small."
"I'm leaving now, bye."
Sheng Yu pointed to the street across the road and said goodbye with a smile.
Shi Ziqi looked at the back of the man who walked away without stopping, and murmured, "Goodbye."
Sheng Yu got into the car and sat for a while before letting out a low sigh and starting the car to Zhi'an Cemetery.
He and Lu Quanze still have one last agreement, and this is also the last time he will visit Mother Lu.
Since the dust settled, life has gradually calmed down. Apart from work, every day is to hang out with friends and have fun.
I have to say that changing the lifestyle that has been around for almost eight years is really at a loss. I am afraid that he is in a lively scene, but his heart is empty.
Wang Xinhan told a funny joke. When everyone laughed, he laughed too, but it was weak.
Lao Qinyang found a delicious Sichuan restaurant and asked everyone to taste it together, but he didn't have much appetite.
This depressed and painful day lasted for a long time, so much so that Sheng Yu herself thought that there was no way to get out of the shadow of this marriage.
But after he gradually got used to the daily routine of cooking alone and reading books alone, and those memories that often popped up and disturbed his thoughts faded, he felt a trance.
He finally came out. Habits are indeed a terrible thing. Even where love fades away, it can bind people firmly.
He parked the car in the parking lot, took an umbrella from the back seat and walked into the cemetery after a while.
Lu Quanze's mother was not buried here at first, but in the small village where she was born and raised.
Later, the village was demolished, and Lu's father moved the tomb here.
At this moment, there are very few people who come to the cemetery to mourn, and they are sparsely transformed into a small dot in the silver world.
In these dots, he saw Lu Quanze wearing a solemn black coat.
The man did not open an umbrella, standing in front of the tombstone like a rigid sculpture, letting the soft snow melt the moment it touched his body.
"How long have you been here?"
Sheng Yu put the umbrella on top of his head and asked lightly.
The moment Lu Quanze saw him, his eyes, which were deeply hidden with emotions, relaxed a little.
"Just arrived." Lu Quanze's voice was very low, he paused for a moment and then continued: "Thank you... I'm sorry to trouble you."
Sheng Yu felt a little complicated when he heard the man's polite and cautious words.
Obviously they used to be the closest bedside people, but now they are so strange, it is unavoidable to feel a little melancholy.
Sheng Yu turned her head and didn't look at him again, but just stared at Mother Lu's tombstone, and silently read the epitaph again in her heart.
[When I came here, I was full of hope, and I only asked that person for a bouquet of flowers. The world was so generous that they gave me a whole body of blood flowers before I left. ]
"Auntie, I'm here to see you."
Sheng Yu put the gun in his hand on the ground, "This winter is also very quiet, you will like it."
Lu Quanze didn't have anything to say, Sheng Yu knew that every time he came to this moment, he was very depressed, his expression was so painful that he couldn't speak a word, and he stood still for more than half an hour.
Lu Quanze looked at the photo of Lu's mother when she was young on the tombstone in silence, with delicate features and gentle eyes.
[Mom, I divorced him. ]
[It turns out that I was wrong at the beginning. Sure enough, like my father, I have become the kind of person you hate the most, selfish and hypocritical. ]
[This winter is so cold, I will come to see you again after the winter is over. ]
[Don't worry, I've already walked out, I'm afraid that the price will almost kill me. ]
Sheng Yu stood beside him silently mourning, in such a silent atmosphere, it was inevitable that he felt a little heavy.
The strange thing is that this time Lu Quanze only stood for 10 minutes before he said, "Let's go."
Sheng Yu was a little surprised, bowed to the tombstone and followed him away.
"are you OK?"
Sheng Yu looked at the man worriedly.
"It's okay, don't worry about me." Lu Quanze turned his head and gave him a reassuring smile.
Sheng Yu nodded, but inadvertently saw a piece of white gauze protruding from the man's left wrist.
"You are..." He was injured?
Lu Quanze followed Sheng Yu's gaze, and explained clearly: "This is just accidentally burned, not self-harm."
Sheng Yu didn't speak, just looked at him deeply.
Lu Quanze felt a little helpless when he saw it, "It's true, I don't need to lie to you."
"Better so."
Sheng Yu smiled coldly, if he dared to imitate Shao Han, Sheng Yu would not mind sending one to a psychiatric hospital.
"Do you know why my mother was not buried with my father?"
Lu Quanze spoke suddenly, Sheng Yu was taken aback.
He knew more or less about Lu Quanze's mother, but he knew very little about Lu's father.
Apart from seeing it once or twice when I was in school, I heard again that Lu's family went bankrupt and Lu's father ran away and left a debt to Lu Quanze, who was only 18 years old.
What, what does Lu Quanze mean, Father Lu is dead? !
"What?" Sheng Yu couldn't react.
"It's ridiculous to say, I never mentioned it to you because of my father who ran away..."
"A few days after I settled my debts, I became a murderer and committed suicide by jumping into the lake."
"My life experience is not worthy of you, and my experience is also full of bad records. I have also deliberately defrauded you of your trust and concealed many facts that should not be concealed from you."
"The night you proposed to me, I was very scared. I didn't know if I could bring you happiness, and I felt inferior and worried as much as I was ecstatic."
"What you want is a clean and warm person, but I'm just superficial."
"Will you still love me when you know all this? Love a hypocritical liar, love a villain who can't tell the truth from beginning to end?"
"Now that we're divorced, it's exactly what I was worried about, but I didn't expect that we wouldn't survive even ten years."
Lu Quanze had a bitter smile on his face.
His mother was a woman from a small mountain village, and it was no surprise that she fell in love with him without hesitation when she met his father, who was as outstanding in appearance and brilliant in talent.
So when she was turned away, she chose to remain silent about Lu's father's hesitation.
She thought that as long as she waited patiently for a few years, she would be able to live happily with the one she loved.
The innocent woman never thought about how harmful gossip is in the small mountain village.
In addition to enduring the abuse and slander of the village women every day, when Lu Quanze was three or four years old and needed to receive preschool education and was sent away, the nightmare began.
Lu's mother's father died early, she was old enough to have a child, and the old mother was already very old.
She couldn't go to live with her son at her aunt's house in the city, because her aunt hated her mother so much.
Her uncle was called by her mother to go to the construction site with her father to dig coal and was crushed to death.
My aunt has held grudges all her life and will never accept her mother.
So Lu's mother stayed to take care of her elderly mother, who knew that because of this, she was targeted by a few hooligans in the village.
It was okay at first, as long as she cursed loudly, those people could be driven away.
But then those people became more and more presumptuous, and even broke into Lu's mother's house in the middle of the night.
It can be said that during that time, Lu's mother suffered inhuman torture, no one could help her, and everyone in the village watched coldly, but Lu's father couldn't get in touch under the obstruction of Lu's family.
Lu Quanze encountered this incident once when he was very young, that day he was outside the house playing with the wood carving his mother made for him, when a tall man walked in.
"Yo, your son is back? What about your man, didn't he come back?"
In an instant, Mother Lu's face turned pale, and she called Lu Quanze out coldly. The man pushed Mother Lu into the room and closed the door.
At that moment Lu Quanze was terrified, and he also knew that his mother was being bullied.
So he turned around to find help, and a woman happened to pass by the door.
Lu Quanze hurriedly told her in a not-so-fluent language that his mother was beaten by a man.
Lu Quanze still remembered the viciousness and surprise that flashed across the woman's face, mixed with a trace of excitement.
At that time, Mother Lu was the envy of everyone in the village. The good-looking men loved her and gave her a lot of money every time they came back, so Mother Lu could live better than any woman with a man by her side. Moisturize.
This also aroused resentment from others, and the woman called the whole village in public.
Immediately, Lu's mother passed out, and Lu Quanze finally realized what he had done wrong under the indifferent and disgusted eyes of those people.
It turns out that not everything will be helped if you say it. What would happen if he didn't say it?
What would have happened if he hadn't met that woman?
Maybe he is still an unpleasant person, but he will not leave such a deep shadow.
The guilt towards his mother is increasing day by day, and what each growth brings is not joy but the cruelty of reality.
After Lu's mother suffered from depression and rage, Lu Quanze was afraid of one more thing.
He couldn't face depression patients. As long as he came into contact with the word depression, he would think of his mother's painful eyes.
He didn't dare to tell Father Lu the truth, because the Lu family couldn't accommodate a defiled daughter-in-law.
He didn't know whether Lu's father would abandon Lu's mother, but the answer was finally revealed when he became an adult.
Lu's father did not escape overseas, but returned to the small mountain village where Lu's mother used to live.
The local ruffian who was severely revenged by the young Lu Quanze returned to the small mountain village after many years.
Father Lu found out the truth by accident, and in a fit of rage he killed three people overnight.
Later, afraid of hurting his son, he committed suicide by jumping into the lake.
"When my aunt called, I couldn't help but collapse."
"I have just grown up, and I have no father or mother."
Lu Quanze smiled very sadly, he was very passive in his life, no matter what his starting point was, he always ended in the most dismal ending.
Sheng Yu was stunned. It turned out that it was not Shao Han's departure that broke Lu Quanze, but Lu's father's death.