novelraw Chapter 378 [378] Everything about her is wrong
Chapter 378 [378] Everything about her is wrong
But all this has become a thing of the past.
Himeko returned home alone with a flashlight.When she got home, she changed her shoes in the hallway no differently than usual, then put on her slippers and walked into the living room.
If you have to find out something strange, it is probably the moment when Himeko paused when she opened the shoe cabinet and saw Hisoka's exclusive slippers.But that only existed for less than a second.
There is a saying in "Sangzhi Law": One moment is one thought, twenty thoughts are one moment, twenty moments are one flick of the fingers, twenty flicks of the fingers are one slap, twenty twitches are one moment, one day and one night are thirty moments .
A day and a night are thirty moments, or 24 hours. The total of 24 hours is 880 seconds, and there are [-] seconds in a moment, [-] seconds in a flick of a finger, and only [-] seconds in a moment.
Even if there are other people here, most of them can't see Himeko's abnormality at that moment. After all, what can be seen in less than half a second.
You must know that even Himeko just scratched something from her heart, and she didn't have enough time to capture her emotions, and she had already habitually closed the shoe cabinet.
After changing her shoes, she turned on the light and walked into her living room.
This living room is no different from usual, only a little more dusty.But if you don't pay close attention, you can't see it with Himeko's naked eyes.
A glass tea table with an orange-red base, and a beige-white cloth sofa covered with a light gray-blue sofa.There is no TV on the TV cabinet against the wall, but there are various dolls on it.The TV in their house is hung on the wall, and the dolls are of all kinds, and every Himeko cherishes them very much.And unlike Millie's house, the living room and dining room of Himeko's house are integrated into one, and are not separated by a screen.Looking from the living room, it is the dining room, with matching dining tables and chairs in black and white.On the opposite side of the dining room is a part of the bookcase, so that Himeko can sit in the living room and read a book.There is an extremely comfortable white leather single sofa, and a golden spherical globe is placed next to it.The bookcase in the living room at home is not just a bookcase, but also an open wall cabinet that contains things in it.
This is a living room with a very homely atmosphere at a glance.
Seeing such a familiar living room, Himeko suddenly collapsed.
The two of them went to Mercury to pick out the gray-blue sofa, and Himeko caught it because the color was similar to Hisoka's eyes.The lazy sofa on the side was bought by two people together with the sofa release.
Before being with Hisoka, there was a TV set on the TV cabinet at home.It was after the two of them got together that the TV was hung on the back wall because of Hisoka's height when sitting on the sofa and the height of his eyesight.At the beginning, the TV cabinet was clean and there was nothing on it after leaving the TV.Then it was the two of them who filled the TV cabinet with dolls together.That little bear doll was the first doll Hisoka gave Himeko, and it was given by Hisoka after Himeko said that she regretted not having a doll when she was a child.The lying puppy was caught by Hisoka when two people went to the playground together, and the tortoise next to him was caught by Himeko.These dolls were set up by the two of them together.
Even the candle-shaped lamp on the bookcase was chosen by two people together.The globe was given to Himeko by Hisoka, because he once said that he missed his sisters from other continents.
Seeing such a living room with her and Hisoka's imprints on every corner, Himeko...how could she not collapse.
She tried her best to kick the lazy sofa, but she didn't move it.Throwing down all the dolls on the TV cabinet, and then throwing all the pillows on the sofa "dongdongdong" to the ground.She also swept the paper boxes and boxes on the coffee table to the ground. She knelt down beside the coffee table and felt that it wasn't enough, so she saw the couple's cups next to the coffee table.
She reached out and grabbed Hisoka's cup directly, and raised the cup above her head to gather strength and prepare to throw it out.
Himeko stretched out her hand high, but her whole arm was shaking.In the end, Himeko put the cup back on the coffee table, and when she put it back, Himeko's eyes were tightly closed.The whole person also became slumped by the coffee table, looking at the place messed up by her, Himeko's heart was full of scars.
The reason why she gave up on smashing the cup was also because she didn't live up to expectations.
The couple cups are very expensive, so expensive that Himeko was reluctant to buy them at first.But later, I felt that it was too suitable for her and Hisoka, so I gritted my teeth and stomped my feet and bought it.Such an expensive thing, even if Himeko is broken now, she is not willing to smash it.Although she is not poor and can only drink northwest wind, she is not rich either.And if a glass cup is smashed by her like that, it may be difficult to clean it up later.
Thinking of this, I realized that even though I have become like this now, I still can't help but weigh the pros and cons.The degree of collapse in Himeko's heart deepened again.
What kind of adult has she become? ! !
Obviously wanting to live a happy and free life in this life, but now it has turned into this appearance.
She doesn't even like her like this.
No wonder Ryan would deceive himself, even unwilling to tell himself his real name.Even after the reunion many years later, she pretended to be a stranger and watched the interaction between her and her current lover.
No wonder Wojin and Kurolo chose to use themselves.Although I don't know where the other party has used me, how could the phantom troupe wanted by the world have time to establish contact with such a self.
Neither of these points is the most important.
For Takemoto Himeko, the most important thing is that it's no wonder Hisoka treats herself like that.He is obviously a villain stained with blood but he has come to provoke her. No wonder Hisoka never revealed his true self to her.
Hisoka probably has always regarded himself as a joke.But none of this was his fault, it was hers!
After all, she also has many, many shortcomings, and even she herself can't accept these shortcomings, which is why she wants to die so much.
She is not gentle and considerate enough, and Hisoka always does too much food and housework at home.She is not sensible enough, and she will always act like a baby and cause trouble for Hisoka.She wasn't good-looking enough, her figure wasn't good enough, and her voice wasn't gentle enough.The walking posture is not seductive enough, and the makeup technique is not proficient enough.She always struggles with interpersonal relationships, not only has no way to help Hisoka, but even makes Hisoka always advise her.Don't even say that she has fought side by side with Hisoka now that she knows the truth. After all, she didn't even dare to kill the chicken at home because Hisoka came here.She wasn't bold enough, delicate enough, courageous enough.
Her body is full of flaws.
Although she would accept the gift Hisoka gave her happily, she would always complain that the other party bought it too expensive.Obviously those are Hisoka's money, why did she talk too much to interfere with the other party.The boyfriend gave her the bank|bank|card, and repeatedly asked her to spend it.But why she always refrained from taking flowers, which made Hisoka unhappy several times.Moreover, Hisoka has almost never invited himself to see him in the Sky Arena before, so why did he directly surprise the other party in the first place?
Looking back now, Himeko feels that she did everything wrong.
It was her fault that she should not go to the frontline base to cause trouble for Hisoka, that she should not lose her temper at Hisoka because of Miss Maggie, and that she should not always let Hisoka coax her.
It was her fault that she should not have been with Ryan, that she should not have known Wojin, and that she had met Hisoka's friend Yiermi.
She made a mistake in not making Hisoka happy, in not letting Hisoka give her sincerity to her, in... not keeping the apple that Hisoka sent but eating it.
Himeko's eyes were already dull and empty.
She no longer knew what she should do now, and her whole body was a little blank.
In a daze, Himeko saw the things in the open hanging cabinet over the bookcase.On the lowest floor was a clay pot that she and Hisoka made together, and it was an ugly pot.Hisoka has strong hands-on ability, keen observation ability and high IQ.But Himeko is far behind Hisoka in terms of hands-on ability and aesthetics. When the two of them made it for the first time, it was because of Himeko that he made such an ugly artwork.But because it was the first time two people made it, Hisoka stopped Himeko and stayed at home instead of smashing it.Gradually the ugly clay pot became beautiful, and it has remained in the house ever since.
But now Himeko has found a way to vent.
This clay pot is ugly enough, economical enough, and easy enough to clean up.At least compared to that water glass, it is.
Himeko stood up from the floor supporting the tea table, and she rushed directly towards it.
She picked up the clay pot and threw it on the ground, but at the last second she still held it firmly.
Although this clay pot is ugly, it is easy to clean up and cheap, and it can let her vent a lot of anger and sadness towards Hisoka.But Himeko still remembered Hisoka planting a light kiss on her forehead after the two of them saw the finished clay pot for the first time.
After that kiss, Hisoka's eyes were full of galaxies.
Himeko sat down against the wall with the pot in her arms.After knowing Hisoka's true face, the tears she had frozen for many days fell down.