Blossoming Flowers

Chapter 126 - The Past

"I was born in a small village together with my twin brother Jiang Fengmian," Jiang Yingyue began explaining. "Already on the day we were born, there were specific problems with his body. The doctors did not think he would be able to survive at all.

"A miracle happened, and he survived. He was my everything, my rock, my confidant. But he was pitiful. He was spending all his time in the hospital or at home in bed. He never managed to leave for the outside world, and all he knew about it was from what I told him.

"We were inseparable. I spent my spare time together with him whenever I was not training. He could not sleep unless I slept by his side, and without his words to guide me, I could never get through the day.

"One day, when it was our ninth birthday, he caught a virus. He was weaker than usual, and he refused to let me see him in such a fragile state. Yet when I returned home from school, I was informed that he had not managed to survive, that the virus had claimed his life.

"I could not manage to keep a clear mind. I was being eroded by the grief and sadness. It felt as if someone had pulled out half of my soul." Jiang Yingyue sighed as she thought back to it. Even now, she would feel uncomfortable whenever she thought about how she had lost Jiang Fengmian.

"I could not cope with the loss, and my family was incapable of bringing me back up. That's when I decided that since Jiang Fengmian had died, I would never allow the world to forget him. I would make his memory live on forever by living his life.

"Unfortunately, things were not that easy. We sold our family home, bought fake ID's, and moved to the capital. But because of the fake IDs we could not do anything that might catch attention, so my parents were unable to use their credentials and educational degrees as they were in another name, only taking jobs that required no diplomas.

"It is also my problem right now," she could not help but sigh slightly as she thought about it, "I have been living as Jiang Fengmian for the last nine years. All my results and grades are in the name of Jiang Fengmian. I am nothing as Jiang Yingyue. It is like riding a tiger; you cannot dismount before the ride is over."

Han Liqiang pondered for a moment, but he already had various solutions in mind. Unfortunately, this was his son's problem, so he would let Han Qingshan deal with it.

"I can help you regain everything you have," Han Qingshan also had some solutions. "But it will require you to redo the first year of university."

Jiang Yingyue thought about it. Sacrificing one year for the sake of returning to the life of a woman was not a big deal, primarily since she had now understood many things.

"But do you not feel guilty towards Fengmian anymore?" Yan Meilin asked. Her eyes were clear and bright, but a cunning light shone deep within. She wanted to hear the answer to this question.

"I do feel guilty towards Fengmian," Jiang Yingyue said with a nod of her head, "but not because I can't continue to live life as him. I feel guilty because I forced our family away from him, I even took away what should have been his life. They were not there to look after his tomb, they have never gone back because of me. This, I am incredibly guilty about."

"I know my brother well. He would never have wanted me to take over his life, but I could not cope with the sadness and made a rash decision. Now that my parents have returned to their original identities, and moved back home, it is time for me to do the same."

"You plan on moving back?" Han Qingshan suddenly got worried; his heart began hurting, but fortunately, Jiang Yingyue shook her head. "I will stay in the capital," she promised.

"I am a woman, so I should find somewhere to live; it might not be suitable staying with you, but I hope I can retain my job as your assistant."

"Living with me is no problem," Han Qingshan quickly said. "It is just like cohabitating with friends! We have our individual rooms, so there is no problem. It is not like we have to share a room."

Jiang Yingyue thought about it for some time before she hesitantly nodded her head. "Okay," she said after thinking it through, "I don't have anywhere else to go anyway."

She had already put up her parent's house for sale, so she could not return there, and she did not have money to buy another place; also, as she had not been given her first paycheck yet, she did not have money to rent anything either.

"But how do you plan on letting me return to the university next year as myself?" Jiang Yingyue asked, confused. But Han Qingshan just patted her head. "Just trust in me," he said with a gentle smile on his face, and she could only nod her head.

After they finished eating, Han Qingshan took Jiang Yingyue out to the car and drove back to the condo. They did not go to the office at all that day.. Instead, Han Qingshan had ordered a whole lot of female clothes after seeing Jiang Yingyue's sizes in his mother's atelier, and they all arrived later that night.