novelraw Chapter 49
Chapter 49
Xie Jinian's lips trembled slightly, he wanted to say something, but stopped again.
"Qiqi, are you not married anymore?" Han Yicheng couldn't calm down and asked tremblingly.
He knew how proud Xie Jinian was.If you still carry these things that are too special to them, you will never be entangled with others.
Xie Jinian was silent for a moment, but still shook his head truthfully: "I don't want to get married."
Not getting married.
The simple five words made Han Yicheng's heart burst into flames that he didn't know could be so hot.
Taking a deep breath, Xie Jinian said seriously, "We don't want to say anything more until the doctor finishes his treatment."
Han Yicheng's panic resurfaced immediately: "I'm obedient, can't I?"
"When the doctor confirms that there is no problem, let's talk." Xie Jinian looked deeply at Han Yicheng, "I can't promise you anything. But I think it's time for us to have a frank and serious chat."
Han Yicheng nodded vigorously, and excitedly held Yuhe ring tighter: "I will do what you say."
He stood up abruptly and called out, "Doctor!"
But suddenly his body shook, and he fell down on the sofa as if he was unconscious.
The doctor hurriedly returned to the living room from the entrance, looked carefully at Han Yicheng's eyes, listened to his heartbeat, and comforted him: "It's okay, it's just physical exhaustion, malnutrition, mental weakness, and respiratory alkalosis caused by overbreathing disease." .”
"Is this alright?" Xiao He was anxious, "Mr. Han's drowsiness has become more and more serious recently, should he be hospitalized?"
The doctor smiled reassuringly at Xiao He: "Mr. Han's mental pressure is relatively high, so it has affected his body. It depends on his own wishes to be hospitalized, mainly for psychological counseling."
He looked at Xie Jinian, and although he didn't know who he was, he had already confirmed that his importance to Han Yicheng was unquestionable, so he asked, "Shall I give Boss Han a nutritional injection first?" Xie Jinian glanced at Xiao He.Xiao He greeted him with a smile: "Of course, Brother Nian has the final say on Mr. Han's affairs."
Xie Jinian nodded silently, and the doctor immediately began to operate with understanding.
Lying on the sofa, Han Yicheng closed his eyes tightly, and the sunken eye sockets completely showed his haggard appearance.Even when he fell into a coma, his brows were furrowed, and his unwillingness to relax made Xie Jinian look away again.
After the injection, the doctor packed up the equipment and solemnly told Xiao He: "He must stay with you 24 hours a day. I will visit him every eight hours. If there is any change in his condition, call the hospital immediately and notify me at the same time."
Xiao He hurriedly nodded and sent the doctor away. He came back and thanked Qinian: "Brother Nian, I am on a plane at [-]:[-] in the morning. I am on a business trip with Mr. Fu. Mr. Han is here..."
Xie Jinian raised his hand and pressed his sore eye sockets: "I'll stay."
Helping Xie Jinian to send Han Yicheng to the bed in the bedroom, Xiao He left in a hurry.
Xie Jinian stood quietly by the bed, looked at the sleeping Han Yicheng, carefully opened his clenched hands, and took the piece of jade that he had finally found after more than ten years of searching, and engraved The ring with Han Yicheng's name was taken out.
And subconsciously smoothed Han Yicheng's frowning brows.
Stretching his brows and eyes, Han Yicheng unconsciously pulled a thin blanket over the pillow, hugged him in his arms, buried his face in it, and seemed to sleep more peacefully.
The thin blanket was very old, and the corners were a little pilled, which actually didn't meet Han Yicheng's daily life.But Xie Jinnian knew that his name was embroidered on the corner of this blanket, and it was the thin blanket he used in the dormitory when he was in high school.
When Han Yicheng put this thing away, he has no memory at all.
After relying on each other for more than ten years, they resolutely separated for six years. Now that they were in such a quiet space with Han Yicheng again, Xie Jinian felt as if he had already passed half his life.
But it seems that they have never really walked away from each other.
Forgetting may be more difficult than remembering, so that Xie Jinnian feels familiar with anything Han Yicheng puts in this bedroom.In fact, most of it has to do with him.
The bed sheets and quilt covers were all used by him, and they were left in the closet in Block A, probably brought here directly by Han Yicheng when he moved out.
And their group photo was placed on the bedside, and a ring was placed in the crystal plate next to the group photo.
His bathrobe and pajamas were neatly folded beside the pillow, close to the sleeping Han Yicheng's profile.
All these collected are very meaningless, but very cautious.
It's like the memories that revived in my brain with these items at this moment.
How to smile and kiss to take pictures of two people relying on each other.How did Han Yicheng unbutton his clothes gently or eagerly and pull his belt open.How entangled with the breathing and blending, the whole body and mind are open to each other.How to embed the other person into one's own life little by little, every thought and action of one's own, bit by bit.
Surges and sweeps, unavoidable.
Ji Yuchen said, to face it, the big deal is to die and live again.
Perhaps, life and death is really a reflection of him and Han Yicheng.
And this time, will he be lucky enough to get to the right place?
Han Yicheng fell into a coma for more than ten hours.The doctor came once and gave him another injection of nutrition. At the same time, he brought a nurse from the hospital according to the arrangement of Xie Zhinian.
Ji Yuchen sent a message saying that his father had been discharged from the hospital and went to Ji's.
When Xie Jinian arrived at Ji Yuchen's office, Ji Yuchen was looking at the project planning documents for the new phase of the project.Seeing Xie Jinian come back, he smiled and complained: "Brother, you go and take care of our father. He rushed out of the hospital and killed the company while sitting in a wheelchair. No wonder this kind of career madness hasn't rejuvenated after so many years."
Xie Jinian was amused by Ji Yuchen: "I can't control him."
"Where's Han Yicheng?" Ji Yuchen quickly marked the document and asked him, "Is there any help?"
"It's stabilized." Xie Jinian replied.
"You went to see him in person, and if you don't stabilize, it's hopeless." Ji Yuchen complained unceremoniously, "Can he let you go?"
"He hasn't woken up yet." Xie Jinian put the topic on the right track, "I came back in a hurry, but now most of the projects in the United States have been successfully transferred to China, we need to discuss how to operate there in the future, and give Dad a plan He confirmed."
After entering work, Ji Yuchen restrained his youthful nature, and Xie Jinian also let himself focus on high-speed thinking, temporarily isolating those emotions and thoughts that still made him feel overwhelmed.
It wasn't until it was almost dark that he and Ji Yuchen sorted out all the American affairs.
He habitually took out his mobile phone to see if there were any messages and notifications that he had neglected at work, but suddenly froze.Ji Yuchen couldn't help leaning over and glanced at his phone screen curiously.
Han Yicheng's profile picture appeared on Xie Jinian's WeChat interface.
Xie Jinnian clicked on the message page, only to find that Han Yicheng had sent him a message 3 minutes ago, and quickly withdrew it.
Ji Yuchen laughed lightly: "Let's just play pretentiously and play hard to get."
He bumped Xie Jinnian's shoulder with his shoulder: "This means you're awake, which means you're going to see him, right?"
Xie Jinian smiled wryly, did not answer, and just exited the WeChat interface.
Ji Yuchen turned on the computer's project management software: "I'm not kidding, you go, Dad, I'll take care of it, I guarantee there will be no problems."
Nodding his head, Xie Jinian put away his phone and walked silently towards the door of the office.
But Ji Yuchen raised his voice behind him again: "Even if he is crying, you have to keep your distance. I am the best brother in the world, so I can't easily take advantage of him."
Xie Jinian turned around, looked at Ji Yuchen with an annoyed smile, "Vice President Ji, don't be naughty."
Arriving at the First International half an hour later, Xie Jinian found that the door of Block B was still open, the light in the entrance was on like last night, and the house was still as quiet as if no one was there.
But this time he knocked on the door twice, Han Yicheng has already walked quickly from the living room to the entrance, seeing Xie Jinian, the light in his eyes became flowing: "I thought you were gone and would never come again."
His spirit was much better than the day before. Although he was still haggard, he was more or less angry.
"When did you wake up?" Xie Jinian walked around him and walked into the house, "Did the doctor come?"
Han Yicheng followed Xie Jinian at a distance of half a step, "The doctor just came."
The doctor was indeed in the living room, preparing the nutritional needles for the injection.Seeing Xie Jinnian, he said directly: "Mr. Han is too resistant to injections, but his condition, if he doesn't get an injection, he will only be admitted to the hospital at 120."
"No, I'll call." Han Yicheng seemed like a panicked child who had been sued by his parents, he hurriedly interrupted the doctor, and then explained to Xie Jinian, "I just...need some psychological preparation time. When the doctor said to relax...it was hard for me to relax."
"It's normal for you to feel dizzy and nervous." Xie Jinian said, "Can I give you a shot?"
Han Yicheng answered yes without hesitation.
Many families have patients who need regular injections and feel that going to the hospital is too time-consuming, so they learn the injection methods by themselves. The doctor has long been accustomed to the fact that the family members can do this by themselves, so he nodded and handed the prepared injections to Xie Qi Year.
The thank you period was expertly completed.Han Yicheng, who was always dizzy from needles, did not close his eyes tightly to escape, nor did he relax his muscles without looking away, preventing Xie Jinian from finding blood vessels, and his posture was obedient and cooperative.
The nurse left with the doctor, Xie Jinian sent them away, returned to the living room, quietly looked at Han Yicheng who was sitting on the sofa with his back straight and obviously very nervous, and considered how to speak.
"Say it straight, I can bear it." Han Yicheng leaned against a corner of the sofa, leaving a large space for Xie Jinian.
Xie Jinian sat down slowly: "When you get engaged, maybe I should have a clear chat with you before leaving."
He looked at Han Yicheng honestly, "But at that time, I..."
"I know. You're terribly disappointed." Han Yicheng said sadly, "At that time, you definitely didn't want to say a word to me anymore."
People will probably be like this when all thoughts are lost, tired, meaningless, don't want to confirm who is right and who is wrong, just want to stay away, just want to close.
What kind of mood did Xie Jinian feel when he left? Han Yicheng has experienced it repeatedly in the past two years.
And how disappointed Xie Jinian was when he learned of his engagement, he also fully experienced it in that suit shop.
All empathy comes from being willing and able to feel the pain and joy of the other person.
He has completely felt it now.
"I came here to completely solve the problem between us." Xie Jinian said very cautiously, "It's not easy for you, nor for me."
Han Yicheng immediately answered "I'm sorry" subconsciously.
"You don't have to keep saying sorry to me. I was really angry when I left. I want you to know my determination, and I selfishly hope that you will suffer because of my determination. In fact, if I were more mature, It should have been handled better.”
Han Yicheng shook his head immediately: "You didn't do anything wrong, it was me."
Xie Jinian smiled wryly, and sighed self-deprecatingly: "Ah Cheng, both of us have gaps, so we rely on each other and convince each other that we are complete if I have you and you have me. But Did it ever occur to you that maybe it just came out of need, not love, between us, from wanting someone to fill that gap?"
"No." Although Han Yicheng's posture was unusually low, he was extremely insistent on this question, "Of course it is love. There are so many people in the world. I only want you, and you used to only want me. This is necessary and even more important." like."
Unique, absolutely no one can replace.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to annoy you." Han Yicheng immediately apologized to himself for refuting Xie Qinan Fengnian's words, "I know, you will be annoyed as long as I show up, I already..."
Xie Jinian smiled wryly and lowered his eyes.He knew that Han Yicheng had restrained his mind and actions, and had not appeared in front of him for two years.
But what made him irritated, although it was the paranoid Han Yicheng who didn't know how to respect and had no boundaries, more of it was himself who chose to avoid it.
Xie Jinian thought that Li Bowen's suggestion was correct.When he is willing to face it, he will find that Han Yicheng's paranoia has been corrected to a certain extent. Now Han Yicheng knows to abide by the boundaries and has respect for others that is not limited by selfishness.
He himself was not so irritable.
Although the achievement of this result was a very painful process for Han Yicheng, but change was never easy.
Just like him, although it was painful to leave, and the time of leaving was so long that it almost seemed like a lifetime of confusion, but as he hoped when he left six years ago, he and Han Yicheng could finally reach a certain degree of mutual understanding and mutual reconciliation .
And they finally started a certain degree of self-consistent reconciliation with their gap.
"I have talked with Dr. Li a lot in the past two years. You have no obligation to fill my emptiness, bear my pain, and you have no obligation to wrong yourself to please me. If I am not willing to give you the rights and respect that I should have as my lover , I am not qualified to be your lover." Han Yicheng's voice was very low, and it sounded unbearable, "I finally understand. But, it's too late."
Xie Jinnian's eyes fell on the various prescription drugs for neurasthenia and sleeping that were stacked on the coffee table.
These things made him feel uncomfortable when he saw them yesterday.He took a photo and sent it to Li Bowen. Li Bowen said that Han Yicheng's current condition is normal if he does not abuse drugs, but he is not healthy."Are you suffering from insomnia?" he asked.
"It's not serious." Han Yicheng said, "I fell asleep when I was very tired. Did Xiao He tell you something? He likes to exaggerate, don't listen."
"Xiaohe didn't say anything. But Dr. Li suggested that you go to the hospital for a detailed and comprehensive examination. He is not very worried about your health." Xie Jinian said, "He should have told you, and he will also give you a medical examination in a hospital in the United States. You arranged."
Han Yicheng lowered his head and did not speak, showing some resistance.
"Han Yicheng, if you want to show that you're sorry for me, or that you care about it," Xie Jinian raised his tone, "torturing yourself, whether it's physical or psychological, is neither right nor effective, you understand ?"
Han Yicheng whispered: "I know. I will go to the hospital. Tomorrow."
"Go now." Xie Jinian looked at the time, "The nurse has already left, and your current situation is not suitable for being alone."
His words made Han Yicheng raise his head suddenly: "Are you leaving?"
Hastily he changed his words again: "Oh yes, you should go back to accompany Uncle earlier, I will go to the hospital."
Xie Jinian didn't answer, just nodded indifferently.
Looking at Xie Jinian's reaction, Han Yicheng asked cautiously, "Can I send you a message when I arrive at the hospital to tell you if I've arrived?"
Xie Jinian still didn't answer, but asked directly: "Why did you withdraw the message you sent me this afternoon?"
"I woke up and saw the nurse was here, and you left. I couldn't hold back, and wanted to ask if you were still coming." Han Yicheng said with an attitude of humility and correction, "I know you hate me like this, so I withdrew it, but I can't retract the retracted notice. I'm sorry to bother you again."
Xie Jinian sighed deeply: "Don't say sorry again and again. I really don't want to hear it."
Han Yicheng nodded, habitually wanted to say sorry again, said one word, and swallowed it again.
He looked like a very wronged and overwhelmed child who didn't know how to please others.
Xie Jinian really didn't want to see him like this again, so he quickly stood up and walked out of the living room.
Han Yicheng's heart hanging in the air fell rapidly because of Xie Jinian's decisive departure.
When falling to the deepest point, Xie Jinian returned to the living room from the entrance with the key of Xiao Fit that Han Yicheng put on the cabinet: "Change your clothes, I'll take you to the hospital."
When Han Yicheng's various inspection indexes came out, Fu Nianheng also returned from a business trip abroad.
He walked into the VIP ward with the bossy and arrogant steps, squinted his eyes, and smiled ambiguously: "Mr. Han, according to the frequency of your visits to the hospital, is it more cost-effective for us to invest in shares?"
Han Yicheng gave him a blank look, then waved his hand: "Don't block the door, I can't even see you."
"I said, why are you leaving the door open, waiting for someone?" Fu Nianheng turned around and looked at the corridor, "It's getting dark, don't wait any longer. After waiting for so many years, I still haven't been crushed by disappointments again and again. I also admire you .”
Han Yicheng glared at him, but suddenly smiled again.
He hurriedly said "You're back", and his voice passed Fu Nianheng to the corridor.
The one who responded to him was Ji Yuchen who was following behind Xie Jinian: "My brother just picked me up in the parking lot, are you going to be so hypocritical?"
Han Yicheng only looked at Xie Jinian, trying hard to hide his irrepressible smile.
And Xie Jinian patted Ji Yuchen's shoulder, and whispered: "Xiaochen, you are here to thank you."
Ji Yuchen shrugged his shoulders, put on an attitude of "I have corrected my attitude", approached Han Yicheng, and thanked Han Yicheng seriously: "Mr. Han, thank you for helping my father block that blow at that time."
Han Yicheng passed Ji Yuchen and looked at Xie Jinian, with guilt mixed in his expression: "It was Han Xiuqi who caused the trouble, and you all were innocent disasters."
"But I promise, there is no future." He kept his eyes on Xie Jinnian, "From the very beginning, Han Xiuqi and Jiang Ruifeng, too many things have affected you, and you have been shocked a lot. I should apologize."
While talking, the nurse came in with the nutritional supplements to be changed. After seeing Han Yicheng's indwelling needle, she shook her head: "It's time to change the place."
Han Yicheng's face immediately stiffened.
Fu Nianheng smiled and bumped Ji Yuchen with his shoulder: "Tell me, can his body still be used in the future?"
Ji Yuchen put on the posture of a decent young man, suppressed a smile, and didn't answer.
Fu Nianheng squinted his eyes and smiled again: "Whatever, it's not for me anyway."
Han Yicheng, who was obviously nervous watching the nurse's operation, took the time to give Fu Nianheng a hard look, but his body still did not relax.
After the nurse pulled out the indwelling needle in his right hand and pressed his left hand again, his face became more rigid.
He turned his eyes away from the nurse's operation, but the obviously tense stiffness still couldn't be relieved.The nurse frowned and tried to comfort her in a gentle voice: "Relax, it's okay, it doesn't hurt."
Pursing his lips together without saying a word, Han Yicheng looked at Xie Jinian, subconsciously raised his hand slightly and stretched it out towards him, then put it down in the next moment in self-vigilance and sullenness.
He closed his eyes and turned his head with a tragic expression.
The nurse patted the back of his hand twice, his shoulders trembled, and his stiffness went up to a higher level.
The next moment, he was completely stunned.
A hand gently held his right hand clenched into a fist, and the nails were completely embedded in the palm.
The stiffness disintegrated into countless pieces in an instant, and Han Yicheng's eyes were completely red.
He didn't dare to move, and he didn't dare to hold back, he just greedily felt the familiar temperature that he longed for so much that he had already despaired, but the temperature dissipated in an instant, the nurse neatly inserted the indwelling needle into the blood vessel, connected the infusion, and Xie Jinian also let go of his hand in an instant.
Han Yicheng slowly opened his eyes, the room was already quiet, Ji Yuchen and Fu Nianheng left the ward at some point, and the nurse gently closed the door of the ward.
In the space where there were only two people, Han Yicheng's broken and begging voice sounded: "Qiqi, can you... come closer to me?"
Xie Jinian looked at him silently, his eyes were too complicated to understand.
Han Yicheng exhausted all his strength and courage. Following Xie Jinian's silence, he slowly lowered his head, and his heart ached bit by bit.
"Han Yicheng." Xie Jinian finally spoke, "What are your plans for the future?"
"Fenghan International has already been controlled by you, and your father and younger brother have also withdrawn. Are you planning to remain so decadent?" Xie Jinian turned on the light in the ward, and his voice was very clear amidst the pouring warm yellow , "Isn't it a pity?"
Han Yicheng said slowly, "I haven't been able to lift my spirits for the past two years."
"I know. You are sick." Xie Jinian said.
"I..." Han Yicheng looked at Xie Jinian nervously, "Can I tell the truth?"
Xie Jinian sat down on the sofa opposite the hospital bed: "Say it."
"You're not here, I can't get better." Han Yicheng sighed dejectedly, "I don't want you to feel that I'm threatening you. But I also don't want to lie to you. After you left, I tried many times to numb myself with work. I kicked Duan Ruiqun away from Xingwen, took control of Fenghan, brought back my grandfather's ancestral home, and Qi Nian International also developed smoothly. I used to think that the greatest joy and excitement in my life were these times, but you are not here, I am not happy at all, what? It’s all like a layer apart.”
"Anything I get at the cost of losing you is meaningless to me." Han Yicheng smiled wryly, "But I realized it too late."
"What about the future?" Xie Jinian was very serious, "Are you going to just give up like this? Don't you feel sorry?"
Even without any job or investment, Han Yicheng can live a leisurely and even luxurious life than most people, but if he can be satisfied in this way, Han Yicheng will not be Han Yicheng.
He naturally needs a career to stimulate continuous improvement, and he should continue to improve.
"If you want me to do..."
"If you don't want me to feel that you're emotionally kidnapping me again, then don't think about whether I want it or not." Xie Jinian said in a deep voice, "With or without me, you will have to move forward."
Han Yicheng suddenly raised his head: "That is... maybe you will be there?"