novelraw Chapter 62: The Name
Chapter 62: The Name
In truth, she could not compare.
Her lineage fell short of Lady Tanmin’s. Her strength, her freedom, even her place in the world—none could rival hers.
And more than all of that—she was Dorian’s wife.
What right had she to stand beside him? What claim could she ever make?
None.
That night, Caelith lay awake upon her bed, turning restlessly beneath the covers.
She wanted to see Rhaegar.
To ask him—face to face—who it was he had risked his life to save.
And yet... she feared the answer.
Feared that it would be the one her heart could not bear.
Dolly entered quietly with tea, noticing at once the unrest in her mistress’s expression.
"My lady... what troubles you? Since returning from the riding grounds, you have seemed uneasy."
Caelith shook her head faintly. "It is nothing. I am merely tired."
Dolly lingered, as though wishing to say more—but in the end, she withdrew in silence.
Left alone, Caelith stared upward at the canopy above her bed.
Her thoughts drifted—unbidden—to him.
To his quiet care. To the way he shielded her. To the warmth in his voice. To the lingering sweetness of his kisses.
How much of it... had been real?
She turned, burying her face into the pillow, as though she might smother the question itself.
Beneath the same moonlight, far away in Firefly Lane, Rhaegar sat alone in his study.
His gaze lingered on the darkness beyond the window.
Isabella Tanmin had invited her out today.
When she returned... would she come to him?
He waited.
And waited.
Until the night deepened, and still, the door did not open.
At last, Lance entered, bowing slightly. "My lord, Lady Caelith has returned safely to the estate. All is well."
Rhaegar tilted his head, saying nothing.
If all was well... why had she not come?
He pressed his fingers lightly to his brow, suppressing the faint unease that stirred within him.
Perhaps she was merely tired.
Tomorrow—
tomorrow, she would surely come.
And yet... for reasons he could not name, something felt amiss.
Three days passed.
By their unspoken understanding, this was the day she was to come to Firefly Lane—to continue her training.
Caelith sat by the window, unmoving.
Dolly lingered nearby for some time before finally speaking, unable to contain herself.
"My lady... will you not go to Firefly Lane today?"
"I will not."
Dolly blinked in surprise. "But Lord Rhaegar—"
Caelith lowered her gaze, continuing her embroidery in silence.
In her hands lay the handkerchief she had once promised him—a pair of blooming peonies, stitched in fine, delicate threads. They nestled close together, vivid and lifelike.
It was nearly finished.
And yet, she no longer knew whether she should give it to him.
At last, she had understood.
No matter for whom he had taken those arrows—no matter whether his affection was born of love or of old debts—she could not continue like this.
To seek justice for her parents was her burden alone.
If one day he turned away—if he chose no longer to help her—would she abandon everything?
Would she let the truth remain buried?
No.
She could not remain forever sheltered behind another.
***
Three more days passed.
Under the pretense of delivering goods, old Steward Milton slipped a letter discreetly into Dolly’s hands.
Dolly did not delay, bringing it straight to Caelith.
She unfolded it.
The handwriting was unmistakable.
Bold. Controlled. Familiar.
"If you do not come within three days, then I shall come to you."
Caelith stared at those few bold words, and suddenly, she laughed.
So... he meant to threaten her?
Without a word, she held the letter to the candle flame. The fire caught quickly, curling the edges inward as the ink twisted and blackened, the message dissolving into ash.
Dolly watched from the side, hesitant. "My lady... this—"
"It is nothing," Caelith said calmly. "Pay it no mind."
When the night grew deep and still, she sat alone by the window, her gaze resting upon the faint heap of ashes.
She knew Rhaegar’s nature.
If he spoke such words, he would act upon them. If she did not go... he might truly come to the Dorian estate himself.
But then what? What would change if they met?
Would she listen to his explanation?
And if he spoke, would she believe him?
How much of it would be the truth?
Slowly, a realization settled upon her. She had come to rely on him too deeply.
For the investigation, she depended on him. For protection—on him. Even her emotions... were drawn and stirred by him.
Was this still the same Caelith who had sworn to avenge her parents?
When had she begun to change?
Was it that rain-soaked night, when he pulled her from the charity hall?
Was it when he taught her to defend herself, when he placed that black iron hairpin in her hands?
Or was it the moment she had stepped forward and kissed him first?
No—this could not continue.
She had to stand on her own.
***
The next day, Caelith instructed Dolly to inform the matron that she had taken ill with a chill, and would be resting in seclusion for several days—unable to receive visitors or leave her quarters.
The response was indifferent.
Only a servant woman came briefly to look her over, leaving behind a few ordinary medicinal herbs before departing without further concern.
Dorian came as well—but only as far as the door.
He asked a few perfunctory questions, his tone hollow. Even without seeing him, Caelith could hear it clearly—his thoughts were elsewhere.
With Isabella Tanmin.
She felt no disappointment.
If anything, she welcomed the quiet.
When all had gone, she retrieved the journal her father had left behind.
Before, she had relied on Rhaegar, trusting him to uncover the truth.
Now, reading it herself, she began to notice details she had once overlooked.
Her father’s handwriting was precise, each stroke lean and disciplined, every word deliberate.
She turned to the entries from several months before his death—
And suddenly, her gaze stilled.
"Julian Milstrom is trustworthy. The evidence has been entrusted. Should misfortune befall me... seek him."
Julian Milstrom.
The name was unfamiliar.
Yet it appeared more than once in the journal—always veiled in coded language, as though deliberately concealed.
Caelith’s heartbeat quickened.
This man... held the evidence her father had left behind.