novelraw Chapter 32: Difficult
Chapter 32: Difficult
"My health is truly unwell," she said, her voice composed yet firm. "If my lord insists, it may worsen my condition. And should word of it spread... others may say that you showed no regard for your wife—that for the sake of your own desires, you forced an ailing woman into what she did not consent to."
Her words struck precisely where it mattered.
Dorian cared deeply for reputation—perhaps more than anything else.
If her illness worsened and rumor took root, it would not be her name that suffered, but his.
She continued, her tone steady, "Moreover... I am presently within my monthly cycle. It is considered impure. Should I offend my lord by such impropriety, it would be most unfortunate."
For men of his standing, such matters were not taken lightly. It was a boundary seldom crossed. And Caelith knew that, too.
"You—!" Dorian’s anger rose, yet for a moment, he found no words to continue.
"My lord, forgive me," she said softly. "This is not within my control."
He stood there in silence, jaw tightening.
At last, he turned sharply away. "Very well," he said coldly. "Then remain here and recover as you claim!"
With that, he strode out, his robes sweeping behind him in restrained fury.
Only when his presence had fully withdrawn did Caelith allow herself to exhale.
The tension left her shoulders all at once.
Dolly hurried forward, her face marred with worry.
"My lady—are you unharmed?"
"I am well," Caelith replied, though a trace of weariness lingered in her voice.
These past two days—his pressure, his insistence—had drained her both in body and spirit.
This grand estate, with its carved beams and velvet drapes, felt less like a home than a gilded cage.
And within it, Dorian Valehart was the one presence she found most suffocating.
***
Elsewhere, within the quiet austerity of the Moon Temple’s charity hall, Yvaine Emberlyn stared in disbelief at the plain vegetarian dishes set before her.
In the Valehart residence, she had lived as a cherished lady—wrapped in fine silks, attended by Charlotte, never once tasting hardship.
But here, the food was coarse, the portions meager, and each day she was made to copy scriptures under the watchful eye of temple matrons who spoke to her without the slightest deference.
Even they dared to command her.
Humiliation burned through her.
She would not accept this fate.
She would not rot away in obscurity while Caelith remained within the Valehart estate, clothed in luxury and favor.
No.
If she must return—even as a concubine—it would still be better than enduring this degradation.
Better to gamble everything than to waste away in silence.
Gritting her teeth, she seized her moment. While the attendants were distracted, she turned and fled toward the gates of the charity hall.
"Miss—!" Charlotte called out, rushing after her—but a temple matron caught hold of her arm, holding her fast.
Helpless, she could only watch as Yvaine disappeared beyond the gates.
***
Three days later.
A carriage rolled quietly through the streets, its destination set. Inside, Caelith sat in silence as they made their way toward Firefly Lane.
Since that night, she had refused Dorian under the pretense of her condition; he had, at last, kept his distance.
For several days, he had not once set foot in her courtyard.
But it was a temporary reprieve, not peace.
As the carriage advanced, her fingers brushed lightly against the dark hairpin hidden within her coiffure.
And ahead, awaited Rhaegar Thorne.
The carriage had barely traveled far when it came to an abrupt halt.
Dolly’s voice rose at once from outside, tinged with urgency. "My lady—it is your cousin!"
Caelith’s brows knit faintly.
Yvaine Emberlyn... was she not meant to be confined within the charity hall? What cause could have driven her to appear here?
"Let her come," Caelith said at last, her tone calm and unreadable.
The curtain was lifted.
In the next instant, Yvaine stumbled forward and all but threw herself into the carriage.
She was in a wretched state—her hair disheveled, garments soiled and creased, her former refinement stripped away entirely.
"Yvaine?" Caelith said, allowing a note of surprise to enter her voice.
But Yvaine did not answer in kind.
Instead, she dropped to her knees within the narrow space of the carriage and bowed her head repeatedly, striking it against the floor.
"Caelith... sister... I beg you, save me!"
Caelith looked down at her.
There was not the slightest ripple in her gaze.
She had long expected that Yvaine would not endure the charity hall.
Yet she had not anticipated such desperation—that she would flee outright and intercept her carriage in the street.
"What does my sister mean by this?" Caelith asked, feigning gentle confusion. "Were you not sent to the charity hall for rest and reflection? How is it that you appear here instead?"
"Caelith, I know I was wrong—utterly wrong!" Yvaine’s voice trembled as she pleaded. "I beg you, show mercy just this once. Help me... help me return to the Valehart estate!"
"Return?" Caelith repeated softly, her lips curving ever so faintly. "My sister jests. It was Lord Valehart himself who sent you away—how could I possibly overturn his will? And besides... your reputation now..."
She left the words unfinished.
But the meaning was clear.
By now, the entire capital whispered of Yvaine Emberlyn’s disgrace—that sordid scandal in the back alleys, her entanglement with a vagrant laid bare before common eyes.
How could Dorian Valehart allow such a woman back into his household?
Yvaine knew this all too well.
Yet still she clung to hope.
"I dare not dream of reclaiming my former standing," she said hastily, her voice cracking. "I only beg—if you would speak a few words on my behalf before the heir... let him take me in, even as a mistress. That would be enough."
Once, she had aimed to become the lady of the household. Now—she begged only for a place among the lesser ranks.
Caelith’s heart gave a silent, cold laugh.
Dorian had already grown weary of her—how could he agree?
And yet...
If she were to help bring this about... would it not serve her own ends?
Dorian’s recent restraint could not be trusted to last. Should Yvaine return as a mistress, she would surely entangle him day and night, drawing his attention away entirely.
And in the process, Caelith herself might gain room to breathe... and perhaps even advantage.
"Elder sister," she said slowly, her gaze drifting toward Yvaine with measured hesitation, "it is not that I am unwilling to help. Only... this matter is exceedingly difficult."
She paused, as though weighing her words.
"The heir’s feelings toward you have already cooled. If I were to speak on your behalf now... I fear it would not aid you, but instead provoke his displeasure."
Her eyes settled quietly upon Yvaine.
A test.
A snare.
Waiting to see how far Yvaine Emberlyn would be willing to fall.