A Former Police Officer Who Died And Get A Second Life!

Chapter 198: Why Me?

Indeed, if they didn’t leave children behind, that would one day be true.

"I don’t want that. I want friends... I want a family."

Of course.

He probably wanted to leave behind his bloodline, but more than that, the fear of eventually being alone weighed on him.

Understanding that feeling completely, Qiong Xing hugged the man who was crying like a child.

He continued stroking the man’s back as he cried for a while, but realizing he might overheat if he stayed in the bath, Qiong Xing finally got out and returned to the room.

He was exasperated at how clingy the man was as he keeps sticking to him whenever he wasn’t changing.

But there was nothing sexual about it; it felt like a lost child finally holding onto a parent and desperate not to let go.

It would have felt cruel to pull him away.

"Okay, enough clinging—"

"No."

"I’m thirsty, though."

"...Wanna go somewhere?"

"If you wanted to go somewhere, you wouldn’t have stayed in the bath with me."

He hadn’t fully trusted him yet, but judging by his previous behavior, he wasn’t going to be forcibly assaulted.

Once Qiong Xing confirmed that he had gone to get a drink, he let out a long sigh, as if releasing all the tension he had been holding.

Why was he so attached?

Qiong Xing understood the loneliness, but he couldn’t understand why this man was so fixated on him.

They’d only met recently and only a handful of times.

Even the appearance he said he liked could easily be replaced if needed.

"I think Albe is also beautifully built... though, well, he’s male, so can’t bear children, I guess."

Really, if the goal was just to produce children, appearance shouldn’t matter at all.

"If you need someone with magic, then you could ask a female demon to—"

"No! I want you! I want it to be you!"

It seemed the guy had returned while Qiong Xing was lost in thought.

He set the glasses he had been holding on the nearby table and ran right up to him, his eyes are shining as if he might cry at any moment.

As he dropping to his knees in front of Qiong Xing, he gripped both of Qiong Xing’s hands tightly.

"Please... please let me be your mate—I mean, please, let me!"

It was like a perfect proposal.

Qiong Xing felt his heart skip a beat and momentarily forgot the situation, but this was not something to accept so easily.

"You don’t have to be me, you know? Sure, I might be someone you find appealing, but that alone isn’t enough to decide. Maybe in the future, someone will come along who truly matches what you’re looking for. For that reason—"

"No! It’s not just that! I... I want you. It has to be you. No one else!"

What could he say?

"Even if you say that... I’m human, you know? I can’t live as long as you. If you’re going to cry because you don’t want to be alone, then maybe someone else—"

"Even then!... Even then, I’m saying I want you. Why is that not enough? Do... do you hate me that much?"

Ah... he thought the crying had stopped, but now it had started again.

How distant the carefree, laughing face seemed now.

"It’s not about liking or disliking—wait, I never said I hate you, did I? If you keep crying like this, tomorrow will be terrible for both of us."

Every time Qiong Xing said he didn’t hate him, the tears increased and soaked hislap.

The freshly changed clothes were ruined.

"I understand that being alone is hard. But wanting me as your mate is different, isn’t it? If I became your mate, then what? If I die, you’ll cry like this again, won’t you? And if we can’t have children? You’ll be alone and crying again?"

"I... I..."

What he truly wanted was the real question.

He seemed to think that making Qiong Xing his mate would solve everything, but that was impossible.

Qiong Xing already had three mates, so he couldn’t give all his attention to just this one person.

Even with their three mates, they understood his short lifespan when agreeing to be his mates.

Having a child with Elias was a blessing, but there was no guarantee that would apply to other partners.

And even though he knew he couldn’t have children as a male, Leander still wanted him as a partner.

He might worry about leaving the three of his mates behind one day, but above all, it was because they all loved him that he chose to be their mates.

"I’m not saying this because I hate you. I’m saying it because you cry about being alone. You understand, right? I can’t be your maye—"

"Why not! But... but I already said it!"

"...?"

"I said I want you! Sure, I don’t want to be alone... but I said I want you! I said I don’t want anyone but you!"

"Don’t want anyone but me..."

His hands gripped Qiong Xing’s so tightly it hurt and he squeezed even harder.

"Please... please be mine. I won’t call you a pet anymore, I won’t say your child is in the way, I won’t yell at you anymore. I won’t be selfish anymore, please... please don’t hate me..."

"..."

Seeing him trembling, his shoulders shaking in tiny movements, Qiong Xing couldn’t bring himself to tell him no.

After all the refusals, how had it come to this?

"Before you beg me, you should tell me something. Why me?"

Qiong Xing didn’t understand why this guy had chosen him so desperately.

Still, if he insisted so strongly, he wanted him to explain why it had to be him.

Because he looked good?

Surely, if it were only about appearance, there were others in the world.

Because he could give birth to his child?

He hadn’t confirmed it and even if that were the only reason, he could find women that was more likely to bear a child.

Then why?

Because he had everything he needed?

But even if he seemed perfect, it was just an appearance, he wasn’t truly perfect.

Yet, he was the one he wanted.